Day 4 – I’m Listening, Lord.

1:20am
I can’t sleep. Last night, I purposefully did NOT drink very much water so that I wouldn’t have to get up and go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. Yet, here I am, wide awake after less than four hours. Believe it or not, I actually got hot, which is what woke me up. When I went to bed, I was clothed with long sleeves, pants, knee-length socks, AND my fluffy pink robe, hoping would be warm enough. Instead, I got overheated!

After church last night, I was ready to go another four days on this water fast, but right now, I don’t know. “Lord, what are YOU leading me to do? I don’t want to make this into a performance of any kind. The point is not to see how far I can go. My desire is to be led by your Spirit.”

Verses from last night’s prayer service keep resonating in my heart and mind. Here is the entire passage in the New Living Translation (which this NIV girl is growing to love more and more):

“Is anyone thirsty?
Come and drink—even if you have no money!
Come, take your choice of wine or milk—it’s all free!
Why spend your money on food that does not give you strength?
Why pay for food that does you no good?
Listen to me, and you will eat what is good.
You will enjoy the finest food.

“Come to me with your ears wide open.
Listen, and you will find life.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you.
I will give you all the unfailing love I promised to David.

God invites us to come to Him. Three times in two verses He tells us to hear him, to listen. That’s what I sense the Lord saying to me right now, in the middle of the night. Listen to Me.

I’m listening, Lord. Nourish me as only you can. Speak to me clearly as I feast on your Word. Regular food only satisfies the body for a short time. Your love, however, satisfies fully. My ears are wide open, God. I want to hear from you. May your Spirit bring life to those parts of me that need to be set free. I hear you, Lord. I am waiting on You to guide me. Give me strength to obey.

10:00am
I just returned home from our Moms In Touch prayer meeting at my daughter’s school. If you’re not familiar with MIT,and you’re a mom, grandmother, or aunt, I would recommend checking to see if there is one at your school. If not, pray about starting one! This is my first year in the group, and I have seen God answer many of our prayers in miraculous ways! It’s a powerful time of women coming together for a common purpose and to intercede on behalf of our children and their teachers.

I started this fast not knowing how long it would be or what form it would take. Today is Day 4, and I could easily transition into a juice fast and then a Daniel Fast. However, I believe I’m going to stay with the water. The thought of juice honestly does not appeal to me right now. My stomach is hungry, but I don’t feel like eating. I’m hoping the hunger sensations will subside. Most articles on fasting tell you that after 3-4 days, you no longer experiences those hunger pangs. That has not been my experience with previous fasts, but perhaps this time I won’t have those rumblings as long.

Fasting definitely makes you more spiritually sensitive and aware of what God is doing all around you. I pray that the Lord will open my eyes today to see the hurting people He places in my path. Now that I’ve spent the last three days in confession and repentance, with much contrition, it’s time to reach out and fulfill Isaiah 58.

2:00pm
Feeling a little bit nauseous and very tired. I laid down while Jocelyn watched a movie, but I couldn’t fall asleep. I’m lacking energy. Lord God, you are my Strength. You sustain me.

2:35pm
Wow, Lord. That was fast. I feel much better already. Just needed to move around. Thank you for giving me energy. You’re such an awesome God.

8:45pm
Have received so much encouragement from people today via phone calls, emails, etc. This afternoon, I had a message on my answering machine from a friend I haven’t seen in years. She called to tell me she got a copy of my book, became a follower of my blog, and is praying for me. That blessed me so much. One of my closest friends, Jenny, also sent me a Facebook message with the following Scripture:

“Sow for yourselves righteousness, reap the fruit of unfailing love, and break up your unplowed ground; for it is time to seek the Lord, until he comes and showers righteousness on you.” – Hosea 10:12

I love that verse. It is so true. Now IS the time to seek the Lord.